4 July 2016


So tomorrow i'm 24 weeks pregnant and it's viability day! It's so lovely to think that if she had to be born now, she stands a chance of living outside of the womb, but it's also that moment where you go, that nice and all, but i'd really rather we didn't chance it and find out. Especially after last weeks scare, it's like "STAY WHERE YOU ARE." Please and thank you.

This week has been a really funny week hormones wise. I am not sure why but i've been slightly unhinged. I have found carrying a girl is a lot harder and truly it's been exhausting and emotional from the start; not that i'd change it for anything. I would happily take the symptoms over not being pregnant any day.

I have done lots of crying this week, and little comments and situations have hit me harder than they normally would have. I cry over little things and then when bigger things happen I go from crying to hysterical sobbing. I am not sure whether it's been the worry and uncertainty of whether these pains were going to happen again, whether it's just all hormones, whether it's the lack of sleep i've been having or whether I am just emotional.

They say "wait till baby arrives and you'll miss your sleep," WAIT? What about now when I am up 3-4 times a night minimum for wee's and the tossing and turning and the cramping, the SPD? I'll probably sleep better after she's born and don't forget heartburn/acid reflux, not sure if they're the same thing or not, that may sound really stupid, but wow, i'm suffering with that too. I vomited Saturday night with that too.
Talking of SPD, thats been pretty painful, but manageable, I say that in the fact that I just suck it up and get on with it, with a waddle and a couple of changes in my facial expression. Other than that it's been okay. I must take Lucas swimming this week and to his first session of the his tots play too.

The other thing that's been painful and not pleasant is my gums, I suffered a little bit in my pregnancy with Lucas with bleeding gums, but this time it's a lot sorer and they bleed a lot! I really need a kick up the bum to post off my application form for my maternity card for free dental and prescriptions. I need to stop being a wimp and get it so I can see a dentist. I was never scared of the dentist until just after I had Lucas and he gave me a clean and said it wouldn't hurt and then he ripped my mouth into a thousand pieces and ignored my cries for him to stop. I'm now traumatised.

The other things that have changed this week, is my bump has popped out loads, although these photos don't really show it off to it's true potential, these photos actually make it look smaller than it is. I have also filmed a baby girl haul and scheduled it for next Sunday as i'm so organised all of a sudden! I also have plans to film another vlog on Friday to schedule for the following Sunday, I also have been buying some really cute items for her, so that's been exciting! I'm busy planning my baby sprinkle too, so that's happening the end of next month.
She's also moving LOADS, loads more than I thought considering my placenta is anterior, so it's so lovely to see my tummy changing shapes. It makes me all giddy and happy. I love pregnancy, even the aches and pains. Pregnancy and my body have a love/hate relationship, but my body can carry a pregnancy and that's amazing and for that I am blessed and could stay pregnant forever.

BABY IS THE SIZE OF:  A Grapefruit... and by ovia she's the size of a Barbie Doll!
IM LOOKING FORWARD TO: When she can hear and we can play her music.
MY FAVOURITE MOMENT WAS: Catching her moving on film, which is on my latest vlog (youtube.com/dearlittlelucas)
I HAVE BEEN FEELING: Pretty rubbish, but for all the right reasons.
I HAVE BEEN BUYING FOR BABY: A rainbow decoration and Dressing gown (matching with her big brothers) 
IM CRAVING: sweets & tea (I drink decaf)
IM LOVING: Watching Lucas rub my tummy and look through my belly button... he think's it's a window.
I'VE BEEN MEANING TO: Put my feet up more.

Lucas is really starting to understand about his "baby Iris" in my tummy and he spontaneously rubs it and it's the cutest thing ever.
Thank you,

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